this guy ..

there is this guy. i want him to notice me. its weird because we used to like each other and ''went out''. i guess i wouldnt call it going out because we msn dated and i never even met him until after we broke up. when we broke up we were very tight. nothing had changed until he started going out with one of my best friends. i let her go out with him because i broke up with him and i didnt like him that way anymore. but then everything changed. he didnt talk to me anymore and just started to drift away. this was about 2 years ago. and here we are today, hardly friends. i read our conversations over the past few months and noticed whenever we talked, i always started the convo's. out of like a billion times we talked, he started the convo. about 5 time :W. i know that i dont like him, but i want to be close with him again. he was the best guy friend i'd ever had and it just hurts to see him drifting away more and more. i try to talk to him and keep the convo's going, but he just thinks im annoying. if only he knew how i feel. theres tons of prettier people out there, and so i guess he'd rather talk to them than me. and hes really changed too, when i went out with him, he was a very sweet person, but when he went out with my friend, boy was he a player. he used her for 'action' and played her many times. i do think about him sometimes. i think about him as everything i've imagined in a guy. and when i imagine him as the perfect one for me, i start to like him. but i know thats not really him so i know that i do not like him in real life. but im wishing that someday i can change him and he'd be just like i'd always wished.