i am sooo pissed right now, its not even funny
no one understand the point, they just keep going on and on about there gay problems
they gave away my suit which was mine and it was sooooo decked out, and i loved it
but they were so URGGHHH that they gave it away
i guess i don't hjave a problem with them, but they didnt even ask me
and surprising that my grandma's sister got it for me and then she just gave it away
sure it was really big but it could've got tightened
and now they don't shut up, i'm gonna fricken kill them
they have no idea how mad they make me !!!!!!!!!
i hope no one reads this, its gonna sound gay and this isnt even half the stuff that happened
i just like venting out my feelings and i never really thought of doing this
it was always just taken out with tears but this way does really help, and its way better then writing it all down in a diary because typing is soo much faster
anyways, yes i am talking to myself and i dont reallly care
i'm just soo mad about how she just gave it away .. i mean atleast ask me first
and i had other suits i never wore which i would have rather given away
but doing it without even telling me when i was soo excited to wear it, urghh fuck them
and now there all up in my ass saying 'oh no, we'll buy you more suits now, any colour, any design, anything'
thing is, i don't give a shit about getting another suit, just i liked that one
and i guess its gone but whatever
i'm still pissed at them though
after that there just like 'oh yeah, she cant give, just take'
like wtf, atleast tell me before you take something that isnt yours
i wish they could all die
like seriously, no i don't but they make me soo mad !!
anywayss, thats some of my really gay story :)

this guy ..

there is this guy. i want him to notice me. its weird because we used to like each other and ''went out''. i guess i wouldnt call it going out because we msn dated and i never even met him until after we broke up. when we broke up we were very tight. nothing had changed until he started going out with one of my best friends. i let her go out with him because i broke up with him and i didnt like him that way anymore. but then everything changed. he didnt talk to me anymore and just started to drift away. this was about 2 years ago. and here we are today, hardly friends. i read our conversations over the past few months and noticed whenever we talked, i always started the convo's. out of like a billion times we talked, he started the convo. about 5 time :W. i know that i dont like him, but i want to be close with him again. he was the best guy friend i'd ever had and it just hurts to see him drifting away more and more. i try to talk to him and keep the convo's going, but he just thinks im annoying. if only he knew how i feel. theres tons of prettier people out there, and so i guess he'd rather talk to them than me. and hes really changed too, when i went out with him, he was a very sweet person, but when he went out with my friend, boy was he a player. he used her for 'action' and played her many times. i do think about him sometimes. i think about him as everything i've imagined in a guy. and when i imagine him as the perfect one for me, i start to like him. but i know thats not really him so i know that i do not like him in real life. but im wishing that someday i can change him and he'd be just like i'd always wished.

i hate snow

I absolutely hate the snow. its cold and wet. i used to love it, but now its just annoying. i was supposed to go shopping today but now i cant cause of the snow
i was supposed to get my exams back, but now i cant (N)
snow ruins everything. snow is good on christmas but i hate how it keeps coming back. its like a storm out there right now, so much snoww !! urgghh
and now that im pissed that i could not go, so my grandma's all up in my ass
she makes me soooooo bad sometimes, omfg i could kill her :